The Sharer

Journey to Spirituality, Healing and Awakening



My First Healing Experience



January 2001


In July 2000, my dad was stricken by a series of strokes and was paralyzed from the neck down.  From a comatose state in the hospital, where the doctors and family members indicated that he wouldn’t go back home, he staged a series of miraculous recoveries, and did go back home, to full time care with a 24×7 live-in nurse and other dedicated family members.  He couldn’t move his limbs, and had lost everything from neck down including speech.  In the 5-6 months that followed, his condition was deteriorating, spastic paralysis had set in as limbs curled up and caused him unbearable pain.  Doctors couldn’t administer painkillers under the bedridden situation he was in.  The situation was getting desperate and family members and friends started researching alternatives to alleviate his pain.  My own research took me to this Japanese healing system called Reiki.  From my initial research, it seemed like many people had reported incredible healings, and it seemed like it was worth a try.

I relayed my findings about Reiki to my family in Bangalore, India where my dad was being cared for.  We were desperate for finding some help for my dad.  I planned to travel back to India to be with my dad for a short visit, during which we were going to invite a well-known Reiki Master in Bangalore to our home to do some healing work for my dad.  Arriving in Bangalore in early January 2001, I met Reiki Master, Dr. Susan Verghis, in our home.  One thing led to another and I asked her if she would teach me this method of Reiki.  She agreed, took off the next day from her work, and hosted me at her home for a full Reiki Level 1 training.  After a lackluster training session that did not satisfy my rational mind, I arrived at home in Bangalore that evening.  And this happened …

The Experience:

I sat at the dining table to relax and contemplate what had happened that day in my Reiki class.  The chair was an open back chair with an arching steel frame for back support.  When I sat down, I felt something wet and slithery underneath my butt.  I panicked.  Big time!  I yelled.  Arms flailing, I leaped out of the chair from the sitting position.  The chair went flying backwards and crashed some distance away.

The sound of yelping brought me the awareness that I hadn’t sat on a snake, which is what I was freaking out about, but the wet snout and tongue of my brother’s new collie puppy dog, Zeus, who had stuck his face underneath my butt without my knowledge.  Geez!  That felt foolish!


As I calmed down, I felt a deep stinging sensation in my left hand.  I glanced over to find a deep gash on the back of my left hand, where the skin had come off, ready to bleed.  The dining table had a 100% glass top, and my stupid flailing had dragged my left arm underneath the table and over the edges of it and torn off this skin.

“Crap!  Now I have to go wash the wound off and put some antiseptic cream and perhaps a bandage”, I thought to myself.  And then I got this insight, this intuition from within, “Hey!  You just learned this healing method today.  Why don’t you use it?  Maybe it will work!”  Unquestioningly, I followed that insight.

It was getting dark, and I told my mom that I would step out into the balcony, close the door behind me, and would need to be left totally undisturbed for a while until I come back in.  My mom agreed to keep the door closed and disturbances away.  I stepped out and followed Susan’s instruction to start a healing session and placed my right palm over the injured area of the left palm.  And I kept my attention on the sensation in that area, and in as close to a state of stillness as I could muster at that time, eyes closed.  Sometime later, I opened my eyes.  It was pitch-dark.  And the mosquitoes were having a great feast on my delicious sweet blood!

I stepped into the home, into the light of the kitchen, and glanced over at my left hand, and was totally shocked to see no gash, no wounds, no signs whatsoever of the stinging hurt and peeling skin that I had seen just a few minutes before that.  It was as if someone had hit the “Undo” button and reversed the wound.

“What the f&^%!  Just what the heck happened here?” screamed my mind!  I wasn’t delusional.  I was injured.  I saw it just few minutes before, and now it is gone!  And all I did was what Susan told me to do.

My left brain insisted that this is ridiculous and that I shouldn’t make a fool of myself by talking about this to anyone.  So I decided to simply carry on with the rest of the night, but knew that something amazing had just occurred.  My wound was spontaneously healed. I made a deep commitment to myself, that I would practice the hands-on healing for 1 1/2 hours each day for 21 days, and practice a bit more daily thereafter. After all, if this kind of miracle can happen on day-1, what might happen with practice!

That first healing miracle on the same evening of my first Reiki level 1 class, triggered by Zeus the puppy collie, and the commitment I made to my practice are among the reasons why I’m here, sharing what I am on this blog about the wonderful journey to healing and Awakening and the wisdom that flowed on that path.

A more detailed version of this story was published on, as part of a series of 5 articles: The Secret of Many Blessings, Part 1 of 5, The First Miracles.



Note: The links to “Previous Blog”, “Master List”, “Next Blog” at the top and bottom of this post, are to other articles written by other Reiki practitioners about their first experience with Reiki.  This chain of articles on the same topic is called a Blog Hop.  Please do follow those links to read other interesting posts on this topic.  And do leave your thoughts / comments below for me.


What started as a blog to capture my passion for technology, entrepreneurship as well as spirituality and healing, five years ago, is now changing, to keep up with the changes in me.

Over fifteen years of healing and spiritual practice have changed me immeasurably.  Standing firmly in this moment, to take a brief glance at the past and the journey, there is nothing but sheer awe and gratitude.

We’ve been told that we live in a “practical world” and the ordinary life you live is part and parcel of it.  However, the experience of life need not be the prison that it can appear to be, and need not be laced with suffering as it often is.

Within you is an immeasurable, deeper presence, your true center of peace, love and happiness, that can be experienced consistently.


Regardless of how pricky, thorny, troublesome, painful, seemingly ugly, or tough your current state is, the fact remains that who you are inside is none of this.  The way to experience who you are inside, is like the metamorphosis of a prickly caterpillar into a beautiful butterfly.  The caterpillar was already the butterfly inside waiting to be released into the world.  Likewise, your metamorphosis can begin, here and now, to that amazing being you are inside, and steadily you can let that inner being shine.

That is the purpose of this blog, going forward, to share the wisdom of the journey to healing and Awakening.

And it begins.

Better late than never

Hello world!  Welcome to The Sharer blog.  My name is Sundar Kadayam, a technology entrepreneur, with over 24 years of experience in the software industry.

Writing this first personal blog post at, I feel so much like a latecomer to a revolution that has been underway for almost 8-10 years.  100s millions of blogs and personal journals, 600M-700M users in social networks, billions of tweets and more later, does the world need another blog?  Really what is the use of another pile of opinions, another addition to the ranks of self-important megaphone wielders?

I did not take these questions lightly. It is true that I’m a Johnny-come-lately to the online world of social media and social networks.  But that is only partly true.

My professional journey had me leading teams of people measuring and monitoring the social media revolution from a time before it was called “social media”, a journey that left me with no time or energy to devote to being on the front lines wielding my own megaphone.

At the same time, I’ve been on an incredible personal journey that has brought greater clarity, healing and incredible moments of awakening.

The problem with blogging for me is that I’ve never been fond of the idea of wielding a megaphone – there’s enough noise out there already, and the world doesn’t need me to add to that noise in any way.  Will I have something useful to say?  Why should anyone care?

But then, despite my reticence to start blogging, I’ve found that people have enjoyed hearing me share my stories, experiences and tidbits from life.

Finally, the resolution to this dilemma came from a dear friend and mentor. He assuaged my doubts about the value I can deliver and pointed out just how sharing came naturally to me.

And so, and here I am, deciding to honor the sharer in me, through this blog, The Sharer, where I plan to share tidbits of learning from the experiences of my life.

Let me get started with a few things right away …

Since 1996, I’ve worked with search engine technologies and it has been an area of passion for me.  In fact, as I write this, at my current startup, Zakta, we are running a private beta of the world’s first real-time collaborative search engine.  It enables friends, classmates, colleagues or other trusted people to search together in real-time.

Another area of passion for me has been entrepreneurship.  Given my background and upbringing, I am an unlikely entrepreneur! My entrepreneurial journey has been fascinating and full of personal learning so far, and I hope to share some of that too here!

I’m also fascinated with topics related to health, wellness, healing and the deeper aspects of life and living itself.  I do healing work, and have been doing so for almost 10 years now. That has opened up a view of the fabric of life itself that has changed me deeply and permanently in the way I relate to people and the world around me.  I hope to share some of these life changing experiences here as well.

There … I’ve gotten started!  I think I can do this – be The Sharer!  And as they say, “better late than never”!

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